The Weekend

Almost a full week of very little Jean. We spoke a few times, very pleasant conversation. For some reason in my head, I get the feeling that she is either seeing someone already or has her sights set on someone else. I also can't seem to help thinking that whoever it is, she has been spending a significant amount of time with him over the last few months. She says no, and I want to believe her, but my gut...heck, what difference does it make now anyways.

I'm going to miss her tremendously! There were times this weekend that I wish she were here hanging out. The saddest part about all this was I was getting ready to have my friend Paolo Vena design rings using some gold I had set aside. Figured we could wook through our issues and start planning our future together. After 4 years, I thought it was time to move forward...oh well.

I suppose now the only thing that could possibly save us is time. Time apart to figure out if all we were to each other over the last 4 years was only just an addicition. Who knows, maybe we'll both come to our senses should time and distance tell us exactly how much we do mean to each other.

I know I love her still and that this will be incredibly tough to get through. Funny thing though, she's known about this site and this blog since I started it, and it's only now after we break up that she finally decides she wants to know more about what I am thinking and feeling. I suppose that if she reads this, she will know that I love her and miss her and want to marry her and have babies with her and live happily ever after...still.

Anyways, I had an interesting weekend. On Friday night my buddy Audrey invited me to an interesting little club where she performs in a fetish show. I figured that I had nothing else to do, I was feeling lonely, so I went. Here is the link for the web site of the shows producers, http://www.clubsin.ca
There was so much latex that I felt like the out of place freak dressed in black pants and a black shirt. :) Much skin was on display as expected, but by God...
They did this Willy Wonka and the Cholate Factory routine which was interesting and clever. Throw in a little S&M, some bondage, a chocolate fountain, and a lot of loose inhibitions and ...well, you get the picture. The only problem was that it was too short.

Audrey, knowing I was there, did a very cool thing just for me. The star of the show, a stunning tall girl with absolutely perfect breasts was covered in chocolate. Two girls plus Audrey proceeded to lick the chocolate off of her body. Now Audrey is a pretty straight girl, but for me she decided to focus on the breasts...she thought I might enjoy that.

Anyways, after it was all said and done, I came home and went to bed.

Saturday, I played a bit of poker with the boys.

Sunday, I recovered and went to help my mother with a few things.